The soul has greater need of the ideal than the real for it is by the real that we exist, it is by the ideal that we live

Monday, February 28, 2011

here we go again

Too  busy today.

Overdosed on the Oscars, good wine, and certainly James Franco.

i don't get it.  He's handsome and talented and all,. but lord he's everyfuckingwhere I look.
And he wasn't the right choice for the Oscars.

Interesting encounter on the way home from the party.  Noticed an acquaintances car in front of the house.  She was in it.  I believe here might be a problem with alcohol.  Not good.

And True Grit was the best picture.

But at least they didn't give it to The Social Network, that would have been too much to bear.

And so it goes:

Saturday, February 26, 2011

hgf wtf?

I was convinced I posted yesterday. 

Well, at least I remembered this morning. 

Looking at a very promising house this afternoon.  still undecided about staying here though. 

The pro list is longer than the con list.  Besides, starting over yet again at my age doesn't have much appeal. Then again that job in Northern California is very appealing. Maybe I should apply...

Oh well I'd rather gawk. 

So let's do that shall we?

And so it goes:

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Though this be madness, yet there is method in 't

so, no more defense of DOMA.

Well a step in the right direction, and it's certainly got the right up in arms.

which is always good.

Still cannot figure out why I feel like hell.  I can't sleep enough cant   eat enough, can't think for more than a couple of minutes at a time.

It's very confusing.

Slept nine hrs last night and this afternoon two more.


Well i woke to Obama choosing not to defend DOMA, nice surprise.

Let's see what they do about repeal.

And so it goes:

Monday, February 21, 2011

Who steals my purse steals trash

Wisconsin of all places seems to be the most recent proving ground for what the Republicans have in store for us should they prevail in 2012.

I just read an AP story regarding the protests and refusals by the government to negotiate. This is of course, union busting at it's finest.

The story neglected to mention that the state created this 137 million budget shortfall by ramming a tax cut down the throats of the people last year.

details details.

The real question is, will the people of Wisconsin have the fortitude to hold the line? They're all charged up now, and they're in the streets railing against he machine, but will they understand at some point that this fight will be hard won? Will they sit down in the streets of Madison and hold out for real change?

My sense that America has been taken over by apathy says no.

But my heart says they must. It's the only way.

let's hope the Gods bestow upon them not only the stamina to do such a thing, but the intelligence to know it's necessity.

And so it goes:

Friday, February 18, 2011

the alma mater

For all the straight southern white guys I loved in grad school.

(still do, truth be told)

Thursday, February 17, 2011


People are funny about money

Sorry about yesterday, the battle over money continued. It was very nearly a battle royale, but in the end a cooler head prevailed and handed me a check that existed all along.

There'll be different arrangements in the future.


Today is already full, how did that happen? i was supposed to have a relaxing morning?

And so it goes:

Monday, February 14, 2011

Oy ye! Oy ye! Oy ye!

Be it known, that my employer the ********** Commmunity College officially sucks!

After putting me through the paces of a contract, and requiring that I be in attendance every single day this weekend even though I was running a temp and likely, had i the funds to be examined, had the flu, guess what they have gone and done this time?

Oh come on!  You can guess I know it. I'll give you a clue, THEY'VE DONE IT BEFORE!

Yes! They haven't paid me!  And after throwing a hissy fit in the Dean's office, they STILL haven't bothered to call me with an answer as to exactly when I will get paid.  Mind you the contract says they're to pay me Feb 10, opening day.  They decided it'll be Feb 15, but now apparently not!  Which means they're in breach!  I cannot wait to call an attorney in the morning. 

Let me take this opportunity to assure you that Master Card, my Landlord, Chrysler financial, not to mention the IRS were OH SO UNDERSTANDING, when I called to explain my dilemma and why THEY WILL NOT BE GETTING PAID IN THE FORESEEABLE FUTURE!!!

Their reaction? It warmed the cockles of my heart I tell you!

So, though I have grown accustomed to eating and living indoors, the ********* Community College apparently doesn't give a damn whether I can keep doing that or not.

They seem not to be aware that THIS is exactly the sort of thing that inspires teachers to ORGANIZE!  and to FORM UNIONS!

But shortly they will be.

So to express my warm and kind feelings toward the administration at the college I so love I offer you this graphic expression of my feelings:

Seriously, what're they gonna do, not pay me?
and so it goes:

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Finishing touches

Today is largely devoted to getting the last of the details handled for he opening tonight,  then I drink...possibly heavily. 

j/k,  it's actually fine, and though I'm moving on to other projects soon, this one was a nice treat. 

And the weather promises to start getting warmer too!  Last night I was on the way to the theatre and I looked off to the west, it was still a bit light at almost 7pm,  woohoo!  There is hope of this winter coming to an end. 

And so it goes:

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The party's over

Final Dress is done.  I'm sitting her with a gin and tonic glad it's over, and tomorrow's opening. 

The show will be fine I think,  the actor;s were late learning their lines and that's their responsibility not mine.

But tonight I saw things I'd never seen before, they're discovering what a beautiful little show this is.  They found several little moments tonight I never saw before that got me, and if you can get to me you've done it right.

So on to the next project I guess.  Well perhaps I'll rest a while and enjoy the fruits of this one first. 

And so it goes:

Tuesday, February 8, 2011


14 hour days in the interest of putting up a show for which the actors have apparently not learned their lines. 

i did my me.

and so it goes:

Monday, February 7, 2011

These whippersnappers!

Got the show tech'd in 5 hrs.  record time, very happy.

The actors fell apart when they tried to do it with lights, but maybe it's a good  lesson to them to really learn your lines BEFORE the show opens.They got a lecture, what else can I do?

But the show looks lovely. The new LD is a nice guy and did a really good job.  In fact was way ahead of me on the lighting for the end of the show.    I tried to stay out of it, it's not easy for me.

Why do you suppose Christine Aguilera is regarded as a singer?  She sucks!  And that's certainly not because I'm such a huge fan of the National Anthem of the United States, it's because SHE sucks!  All that wahahahahahahahahah-ing,  STOP IT!  That is NOT singing!

I just wish people would stop thinking of her as a singer, she makes noise, that's all.

And apparetnly we're  celebrating the 100th birthday of the biggest mass murderer since Hitler.

Ronnie, (the senile) Reagan.  we celebrate the strangest things here in America.

The discovery of the Indies, which we decided was the discovery of America, by a brutal despot.  The pretend birthday of our "savior." President's Day, most of whom ordered thousands killed in the name of "right." The 4th of July on which we established the right to persecute others for their beliefs. and on and on ad nauseum.

Ronald Reagan never once mentioned the word AIDS until he was almost finished his second term.  Tens of thousands of people had died by that time.  He allowed it.  Even encouraged it.

The only appropriate punishment for that miserable bastard wold be for him to remember for all eternity what he did, and to have to listen to Christine Aguilare sing the national anthem over and over and over.

and so it goes:

Friday, February 4, 2011

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Howard Stern/ Al Sharpton

Howard Stern's recent revelations about his feelings regarding gay and lesbian men and women in this country were almost as depressing to me as the day I agreed with Al Sharpton.

Howard says something to the effect that he's given this subject a lot of thought and we're "downtrodden."

Ok, well I can't disagree with him there, however, it makes me feel the same way I did when I ran into an old friend I'd been thinking about and then remembered why I stopped seeing him.  He felt I was this poor wretch who needed him and his ilk to reach out to save me from the rigors of being...well, me.

And though I admire that kind of compassion I really don't want nor need to be thought of as something/someone who needs to be helped through this life.  I'm quite capable thank you, and I find it more than a little insulting that you think I'm not.

Howard was right when he said we're citizens of the U.S. and we should (do) have the same rights as everyone else, I've been saying so for years.

It's just that even if you're on the side of right, it's not necessary to pity me because i exist.  It shouldn't be a big deal at all, I guess that's my point.

Off to work where I assure someone will mention the fact that the gay guy at work is so much fun.  Argh!

and so it goes:

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Hoist with his own petard

Ok, so now I'm impressed.

There was snow...lots of it.  Then there was more.  and I, at home for the third straight day am getting cabin fever. 

So much so that I've stopped having the vapors over the lack of rehearsal my show is getting, and turned to daydreaming about new cars. 

My current favorite:
Wouldn't it be funny if I bought a house and a car and spent the same amount on each one?  I mean honestly it's way past time for a mid-life crisis car, so this I guess would be, what the senior rocket?  Oh! I've got it, the Lechmobile.  It's so me.

Alas, today it's yet another day stuck in the house.  AAAARgh!

Maybe I'll cook.  Just what my waistline needs, food.

And so it goes:

Nope no shadow, must be an early spring.

True is it that we have seen better days

A little more snow than I expected. (like a foot)

No troubles traveling thankfully, but the winds, oh my.

I parked my car and turned to walk from the garage and there were drifts everywhere knee deep. I tried several routes and then went "fuck it" and waded in.

Now I'm 7 days short of rehearsal. And tomorrow I'm snowed in. FUUUUCK!

And so it goes: