The soul has greater need of the ideal than the real for it is by the real that we exist, it is by the ideal that we live

Thursday, June 5, 2008

You'll never guess...

Casey Affleck is soo cute! Unfortunately he's married to a Phoenix. (as in Joaquin's sister.) The original hippie family. My friend K knew them when he lived in Sonoma County many moons ago.

So here's Casey. His brother has that magic that the camera loves, but Casey is the actor in the family.









Nice ass Casey! Wouldn't you just die if your mother came in the bathroom when you were naked in the tub and started hugging you? ...freak!

I also have to include this photo I just found on Towleroad.com It's a school of Stingrays.



Cool, NO?

I rode just short of 20 miles last night. I would have gone all the way, but there was a storm coming and I didn't want to tempt the lightning Gods any further. I love this new bike more and more, I was flying, and at the end of the first hour all I wanted was more, more, more. So I made a good choice apparently. I'm going out this weekend, maybe both days, to get in another 40 or 50 miles.

For reasons passing understanding my adoptive father has given my brother the mantel clock I was to get in his will. So my brother wants to give me that this weekend. It's great, strange but great. My brother says all Daddy dearest wants is rid of all the stuff he's not taking with him to the new condo. I told my brother that I went through that when our Stepmother died and about three months after he moves the bitching will start about not having anything in the house because "you kids took everything I had." That old man is nothing if not predictable. I am however getting the rest of the dynamat that he never had put in his car. I bought a huge box of the stuff and did the floors and trunk of his new car so it'd be quiet and then he did me dirty and simply "can't understand" why I never came back and took his doors apart and put dynamat in them too. What an asshole. To borrow a phrase from one of my favorite movies, Nobody's Fool with Paul Newman "Fuck him eternally."

The LCD TV is developing some kind of problem and I'm not one fucking bit happy about it. I'm pretty sure the power supply is going out. I'm also pretty sure that there are none, or at least very few available. So I figure I'll spend the better part of the weekend replacing capacitors in the existing one. Which sucks, especially since I'm 60 days out of warranty. Maybe this is why God gave me a Bestbuy credit card. hmmm.

Of course if I'm trying to buy a house, running up the credit cards isn't the best idea I've ever had. I guess I need to cuss more on this blog, my cuss-o-meter numbers are dropping like fucking crazy. Let's hope that helps


Well Happy Hot Guy Friday! Have a good weekend.

Crises Concurrences Curiosities and Cuties

I'm feeling alliterative today.

I still need to get the hell out of here and go back to New Mexico where I want to be. I think about it everyday and dream about it every night. (Isn't that a song lyric?)

Ok, here it is.

What I want is a place I can live from now on, where I can have a horse that I can actually ride, and make pots and become a better potter and travel a little, and where there is at least the possibility that I could teach at least part time. And where I feel free. New Mexico is the only place I've ever felt that and I suspect that's the big attraction.

I've found a house. It's new, yet very affordable. Away from everything, yet not isolated. Endowed with a location I couldn't dream up if I tried. And it's very near an artistic conclave. Oh by the way, the 4 acres it sits on border a national forest FILLED with horseback riding trails all the way to Colorado and beyond.

I could do it. I could buy it while I'm still here, and even if I only used it as a vacation home for a couple of years until I got a job there I could actually make it work. It seems perfect at least on paper, or should I say cyberspace.

I already have the horse,well, essentially. I could get my stables to sell me one of the many they already own and arrive with that part settled.

I'm already furnished cause the house isn't that big, and I just bought new stuff.

I've always planned to have two residences anyway. This would meet all the needs and do it now instead of that waiting game I've been playing for five years. Meaning my life will have finally started instead of being on hold until I find that dream job.

Maybe it really is time to start having some of the things I dream of and stop living for "one day."

I'll let you know what my real estate agent says.

I'm also wondering if I'm not being party to a scam of sorts. There is a blog that I really love and that I have read for a while. But I'm starting to wonder if there was just recently one too many coincidences. I'll still read, and I still want to believe but the seeds of doubt have been planted. Now I read with a skeptical eye. I think I still love the whole bunch of them though. They're scoundrels after my own heart.

And remember tomorrow! Hot Guy Friday! Guess I better go decide who it is.


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