The soul has greater need of the ideal than the real for it is by the real that we exist, it is by the ideal that we live

Thursday, October 1, 2009

What does that mean exactly

Yesterday was a day filled with ambiguity. I'm sure the University gig is over. There are no concrete signs but just as an experiment I mentioned the future several times to different people and all I got was a stiff smile from each of them. It's unfortunate that they don't have any better answers than they do. Of course, they'll solve all these pain in the ass issues they gave me and the next guy will have smooth sailing, it's the way employers work. And of course they'll deny they had any problems except me. I shouldn't sound so bitter about it cause I'm glad it's gonna be over, it's too much hassle for work I don't want to do anymore.

My students in the evening were ambiguous as well. They seemed uninterested in almost everything I talked about. Lots of lethargy last night, I couldn't tell if they were tired or just bored. It makes for a long evening when I do all the talking.

I'm done with both of them until Monday. So that's a bit of relief. I can turn my attention to other things maybe, like picking up this filthy apartment. Wow, I'm a bit of a drama queen this morning huh? It's cluttered since I've been running in and out for three days and it's making me a little nuts because of the mess but it's not that bad really. Lord, I hope I don't spend the whole day explaining myself like this.

So let's forget all about that stuff and daydream.

Ok, daydream over.

That was fun huh?

and so it goes:


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