The soul has greater need of the ideal than the real for it is by the real that we exist, it is by the ideal that we live

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Slow news day

Truthfully, it's a slow day in general. The autumn gray has settled in. This morning I realized that the culprit creating my malaise is Zyrtec. I only take that shit when I have to, it makes me a zombie. But it sure works.

Malaise aside, I'm enjoying fall break. I've built most of the "wall" I'm creating to hide all the tv etc wires, and now the slate is going on over that. The top section has been re-thought and I'll be expanding that shortly. Hppy with the results though. When grouted it'll look pretty cool.

I realized the other day that in addition to spending a grand filing bankruptcy, which I'm not sure I can still do since I can pay some though not all of my bills, I need to spend another grand paying tuition for my ESL certificate, and almost $600 on the car. It needs regular stuff for the winter, oil, brakes,battery, plugs, etc, but in addition to that I get the dubious pleasure of buying a windshield. State farm will only pay $25 after the deductible. Love them so.

A man was gay bashed in NYC the other day. He's in the hospital. His attackers are children. This does not bode well. Truly I fear becoming a gay senior citizen. My head still says "You could kick their asses then, you can kick them now." but my body says, "You'd better get the hell out of here before they kill your old ass." It's a conundrum solved by the age of my bones. Hope I can still run.

I've been short of breath lately when climbing stairs and lifting and toting stuff. It's odd, since I can still ride a bike 75 miles a week, but can't carry four 2x4's up a flight of stairs on my shoulder. I hate getting older. I suppose those calcified granolumas on my lungs are responsible in some way.

Calcified granulomas are formed when one is exposed to Tuberculosis and though it never encapsulates the lesion is still there so since I was apparently exposed many many times when I was a Respiratory Care Practitioner, it seems I get to live with the reminder from here on out, This would explain my positive tb skin test in the past. Of course all those cigarettes didn't help I'm sure. it's also the reason I'm not an organ donor. I gave everything I intend to to modern medicine thank you very much.

I also realized that though it would be appropriate and not unexpected that the Oklahoma Governor's mansion would be made of cinder block, it's actually White Indiana Carthage Limestone:

Still looks like cinder block to me.


And so it goes:


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