The soul has greater need of the ideal than the real for it is by the real that we exist, it is by the ideal that we live

Friday, July 24, 2009

Hey, Rocky! Watch me pull a rabbit outta my hat!

Why must there always be a dilemma? It's just drama, and I HATE drama.

My profession is one that has several aspects, and in my estimation the more of those aspects you are adept at, the more employable you are. Sometimes a viewpoint can backfire.

I spent..well a LOT of money to get my Master's Degree. I've spent many years cultivating my abilities in my field. Typecasting has got me again.

My Grad degree is in Directing, much of my experience here in my city of origin is in the more technical aspects of theatre. I also act...well, I used to, I was a passable actor, but in the many years since I've been off the stage my "chops" are gone, so that particular bug doesn't bite me anymore. I've done Pr, marketing, managed several ticket offices, produced, directed, served on several season selection committees, and more than one board of directors.

But here they still think of me in a technical way.

I don't dislike this, my intent all along has been to make myself as marketable as possible, with the ultimate hope of finding a job at some small college in the middle of nowhere where I could teach, make good theatre, make pots, ride horses, and have my family. A sound plan, I keep thinking. Somehow the Gods,inertia, SOMETHING keeps me from attaining that goal. Well, at least it keeps coming back to me in different forms which are all confusing and confounding at once.

I got a call yesterday asking me if I'd be interested in teaching at a local university part time. The call came from a well-respected member of the theatre community locally.

Mind you, she not only had to think of someone she's only seen once in the last decade, she had to go to the trouble of tracking down my number, which she could only have gotten from one source. So this is quite a compliment.

Here's the dilemma.

I don't think I want to do it.

I'm 52, and I simply am too damn tired to be wielding 4x8 sheets of plywood around a shop anymore. I suppose if there are students who will do that I would be willing to entertain the notion of looking into this. It apparently also involves teaching a class or two, so it would bring in much needed income,and keep me out of the savings, which is always good. And if that is the case I'd be expanding my Curriculum Vita, giving me even more fodder for finding that job in the middle of nowhere.

See, a dilemma.

I'll call the guy today and see what he says, especially since someone went to enough trouble to get me in touch with the job. But in the end it'll have to be a good deal or I'm staying on unemployment.

Fuck it this is Hot Guy friday:






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4 comments:

Bigg said...

I think life's too short to do stuff that doesn't make you happy. On the other hand, more practical people than I might say money is money, honey. I still think happiness is better.

LL aka Lisa-Lin said...

Dilemma? You jest, right? You solved the situation yourself. Let the kids do it. Because you are 52 and earned the right to deligate. It's quite OK, you know. Deligate. You'll still have control-just won't bust your hump in the process. Gotta a dance teacher chum, who turns 50 in a few weeks. She still teaches, but the stuff that breaks her back--her student teachers.

Dilemma--BAH!The dilemma should be what DAY you teach so it jives with the rest of your schedule.

I'm an Aries. There is no No.

The New Me said...

I can testify to that!

The New Me said...

And Bigg, I agree with you. We'll see what they have to offer. I'm not sold on it yet.